intermittent reinforcement

 Hey all - 

Last night I was craving something sweet so bad. I am still on the beginning dose of Zepbound 2.5. I move up to 5 on Wednesday & it is definitely time to increase my dose.

I got through the craving by repeating 2 words -intermittent reinforcement-. For the significance of these words & how they helped me I refer you to Susan Pierce Thompsons Vlogpost on this subject; 

I got through the craving thanks to those words.

And then I slept for 8 hours which is 2 more than my usual & woke up feeling good.

James Taylor - You Can Close Your Eyes

I will get there

 Doctors appointment went off without a hitch - except - we talked about the MCR bridge & she was supposedly going to follow up with research that night & call me before 5. It's been a couple of days & no call. 

I lost 6 more lbs!

I did get notice that my script is being filled & my next Kwikpen is on the way to me. Yay!

I started a new Bright Line Eating course today. It is called Grit & I will be studying it with 2 other Bright Lifers.

Food continues to be a challenge. Nothing tastes good. And I'm not hungry. The blood tests I took before my appointment were all good so I'm gonna just keep experimenting until I get it right.

Meanwhile here's the Rolling Stones vocalizing my frustration;

Got to be an easier way

 I get off work in an hour & a half which is Wednesday morning 330am Eastern tz. I don't work again until Friday night @ 650pm. So this is my 'weekend'. YAY!

Many thoughts are rambling through my brain. I was hungry earlier & I think it was real hunger. I am having troubles settling on vegetarian protein sources. Cheese check. Beans check but not everyday. Soy sausages check but again not everyday. Seeds & nuts check. I need to work on my tofu skills. And find some other sources.

When I get off work I will take my shot. And later in the morning I have a doctors appointment & I have to get my prescription renewed. I am going to ask to go up to 5. I need to change doctors & if this proves to be a drama I am going to do that. My doctor is competent as a doctor but doesn't appear to know how to be the boss. That has been going on for the almost 18 months I have been her patient. I have mantras that I say in my car to try & get in & out of her office with no drama & with my healthcare needs met.

It shouldn't be so hard.

Josh Ritter - You Don't Make It Easy, Babe

Peace broke out in my brain, y'all

big, dreamy sigh... I. Love. ZB. 

Today I had to go to the grocery store. You go through the bakery to get to produce. And I did not stop. And nothing sang at me. I was half way across the store before I even realized; hey look at this cart with no NMF in it! (not my food)

I came home to watch tv before work. I watched an episode of Mrs Maisel season six which I haven't seen yet. Then I wandered over to my desk to work. With my water pitcher & my glass. Again - no NMF!

There were definitely some irritations along the way. Someone yelled at me in the parking lot because HE was having a bad day. I kept dropping things. You get the gist. Still no NMF.

Thank goodness for ZB or this day would have been full of sexy NMF & I would be gaining back what I lost. 

Not today!

I dedicate this song to all that sexy NMF out there - Hit the Road Jack (by Sweet Sisters)
 

 I used to talk about writing here. At this time I am choosing not to write (except blog posts sometimes).

I am on Zepbound GLP1 for purposes of losing weight. I will talk about that here. 

And maybe other things. Like trees. Or the beach. Or any thing that intrigues me.

Today I need to whine. 

I gave up sugar before I started ZB. 

One of the things that happens is - your tastes change. I used to love coffee & tea. Now I don't.

That is I don't like the coffee or tea I liked before.

What I really miss, though, is ambience. So today I went searching for ambience at Panera's. While I was there I had a thought - I used to not like Paneras coffee - maybe now I would.

I did like their coffee. So I took a cup of Paneras Hazelnut coffee with some half & half to the Bellaire Causeway & found a lookout / parking place with a view of the water that met my need for ambience.

NEW moon mantra - October 2025

 My willingness to take care of my body increases with the waxing moon.

The amazing Nick Drake (deceased).

Sometimes Dandelions must grow up through holes in concrete

 And that's what it feels like lately. Survival mode.

Also - I am reluctant to write & add more words to the chaotic den of society today.

Even though I still read fictional novels.

Go figure.

Anoushka Shankar - Voice Of the Moon